February 2024: A Walk In Progress
How do you define your month? Do you have a monthly theme or a weekly theme?
For me, I knew this month would be a walk in progress. At first, when that phrase came to my Spirit, I had to be sure if it was ‘work’ or ‘walk’ — I needed to be sure what my Ibadan tongue was telling me. However, as the month unfolded, days rolling into weeks and weeks rolling into each other, I knew for a certainty that this was a walk in progress.
You see, I have always had a fine inclination and preference for February. Loads of good stuff has happened to me in the past years, particularly in February. So February was a harbinger of good things in my books. So while I held on to the theme my Spirit birthed, I was also skeptical of the kind of walking or working that it would require of me.
It became clear that February demanded my walk in Spirit, body and soul (literally!). It was not that I needed to work harder or show up for myself or my loved ones harder; neither was it a call to track my progress in all areas. I realised that I needed to walk a path that was not only unfamiliar but also challenging.
I realised that February was a red sea, and I needed to see the paths God had opened for me to walk through. I also realised that each week held a new path, so, you see, the month was complicated and demanding.
I walked. Boy, did I walk! I often wondered if the path was the right one and if the things my Spirit was calling me to see, think about, and meditate on were true. At the peak of my journey this month, when I was experiencing loss and rejection, I was not sure anymore if I was indeed on a journey or if life was just life-ing for me.
But I knew what I heard in my Spirit and the kind of mind God had given me. I could walk through this path, or I could work through it. The options were clear: Do I want to dig deeper into these paths of the unknown, or do I want to use what I know and can do to get myself out of this?
But you see, I had decided long ago to know God. I knew I could walk through all of what was thrown at me, but my fear overtook my body and mind. I become scared with doubts and obsessed with things being good and all my desires fulfilled. While my body was wrestling with fear, my Spirit called me to go deeper. I understood what it means to surrender. And to surrender to what is yet to reveal itself is to trust in the mysteries of God. On days I felt my body was overwhelming, I was drawing from my source of strength. On days when my Spirit was blue, I drew from the God of all comfort.
At the end of the month, I became more convinced that God never leaves His own. And I am His own. So when I look back at this month and reflect on all that has happened and all that did not happen, I see multiple paths of faith that charted the month and allowed me to scale through.
So cheers to a month that became a harbinger of the deep walk and knowing of the Spirit.
I am glad February is over. I am even more excited to see what March holds.
